There are a lot of thing I wanted to do before 2010 comes to the end.I'm 20 this year and thinking about doing some changes. Maybe...some make over -get a fresh look. Some says that new look helps you become new person. I really hope I'll become new positive person.I know what its take to move on, but change for good ain't a crime kan?
I gave up my childhood dream -becoming a profesional accountant -recently. Maybe I don't have the courage or maybe I just tired of trying. I don't know! All I can-pray for the best. Allah knows better, kan?
A couple of weeks before and after ayah and ibu went to Hajj, I was in emotional-unstable-state. Encik airmata sangat murah! A few night in a row which I cant remember for how long I cried,I realized that I longed for some care and love from people around me. Yeah! I'm such a LOSER! I regret for being "annoying" to some people whom I almost recognize as a friend. Too bad, they will just be classmate/roommates/people I know during my uni-life. But no worries, I never hate people before and I really hope that I will never ever hates one.
-saya sedang derita merindu mereka ini-
-mereka ini juga berharga dalam hidup saya- 
Monday, November 8, 2010
november-one month left before 2011
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
suka hati kau la labu
"people who said money can't buy happiness simply because they shopped at the wrong place."
"when poverty knocks your door, love flies through your window"
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trust me,i'm not a gold digger! If i'm one, i'll only digged my own gold. why should i run after others money? yes,true-i always said about married to arich guy and all
that, but again-did i said i want to married him,and live happily,goyang kaki,shopping 24/7,swipe mr.credit card at every shop and when mr.husband getting broke,i'll leave him for another mr.rich guy? of course not! i've my own dream-i want to stand by my own feet. at the same time, i do want a guy that can promise me a better and bright future too. but again-it's not only him has to work hard,it's my responsibility too. but as a man, mr.husband has a priority to provide for the family. so, i want him to take control and be the man who is doing his responsibilities very well. don't get me wrong-i bukan nak hidup mewah ala-ala fairy tales. i just want a comfortable and affordable life for me and my children. am i asking too much here?berapa ramai orang cerai berai.i've heard,read,saw a lot of sad ending story.what makes it look pathetic is they saperate because of mr.money.
of course as a muslim, i must look at the mr.husband's knowledge about Islam and his faith. no denial that Islam is the most important thing in life. but also Islam teach us that we should strive in our life.
"beramal ibadat lah kamu seolah-olah kamu akan mati pada esok hari, dan bekerjalah kamu seolah-olah kamu akan hidup 1000 tahun lagi"
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see, how beautiful Islam is. so, stop letting your emotion take control. be rational and don't make fun of others. everybody have their own opinion. eventhough we have different view, doesn't mean that i'm wrong and you're 100 percent right. who are you to jugde people, huh?just like i never critisize your crazy fantasy about getting married to superb handsome,hot,macho guy.why don't you just accept mine?
haish...entah pape la awk ni.... :S
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
aunt glamor! ;))
alhamdulillah!syukur Ya Allah.
aku berase sangat gembira hari ini.Tapi ade la sikit rase bedebar dan cuak.
haha!
lebih kurang 1am tadi along telah selamat melahirkan puteri sulungnya,merangkap cucu sulung ayah dan ibu,dan merangkap jugak anah buat sulung aku,abang dan adik.
yeah!
abang eddy cakap aku dah jadi MAKCIK,tapi aku tetap tak akan biarkan baby tu panggil aku MAKCIK.baby tu kena panggil aku AUNT SYA.
glamor!
ibu pon nak glamor jugak.ibu kate baby tu kena panggil ibu GRANDMA SOM.
haha!
ibuku,ibuku.anda pon giler glamor ye.patut pon anak anda ini giler glamor square.
well!
aku pasti kami sekeluarga sangat gembira sekarang.first time la kate kan.semoga kami sentiasa dikurniakan nikmat oleh-Nya,sentiasa didalam keselamatan dan peliharaan-Nya,dan yang penting kami tidak leka dan lalai dengan nikmat yang diberi malah moga bertambah keimanan kami kepada ALLAH.
Amin.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
berdikari
haha!
memang poyo habis la aku ni kan.tapi,walau ape pon aku tetap nak bagi credit pada diri sendiri.hari ni-july,11 2010 aku telah selamat kembali ke international islamic university,gombak dengan menaiki bas dari skudai ke bukit jalil SEORANG DIRI!
wah!
macam jakun pon ade la kan.tapi lantak la.ni kira first time dalam sejarah hidup aku tau.masa mula-mula ayah cakap aku kena balik sendiri naik bus,memang la cuak.tapi aku wat muka macho je.malu la aku nak cakap kat ibu gan ayah yang aku ni takut nak naik bus sorang-sorang.
so,
aku pon memberanikan diri dan bertawakal kepada Allah.bus dari skudai pukul 10.15am.tu pon kira nasib baik aku tk tetinggak bus sebab aku tk perasan pon bus tu dah sampai dan dah tunggu lama.bila orang tiket bus tu call aku baru la aku perasan yang bus yang sepatutnya aku naik dah ade depan mata.
hehe!
perjalanan dari jb ke kL ade lah lebih kurang dalam 4jam.aku cuma dapat tido2 ayam je dalam bus tadi sebab pakcik driver bus tu bawa bus agak slow.aku memang ade masalah sikit kalau naik kenderaan slow-slow ni.aku rasa tk selesa nak tido sangat.aneh ke?
tak kan!
turun kat bukit jalil,aku kena naik train pegi masjid jamek.nasib baik timing aku dengan train tu memang sangat sesuai.lepas beli tiket je terus train sampai.aku pon ape lg,menyelit la dicelah-celah orang ramai.nasib baik kena berdiri dalam train tak lama.nampak je ade orang nak keluar cepat-cepat aku pegi duduk.
yes!
dari masjid jamek kena tukar train pegi gombak pulak.masa lalu depan burger king aku macam dah nak masuk je beli burger.ape tak nye,perut aku lapar giler sebab breakfast makan nasi impit 3 ketul je cecah sambal kacang.tapi aku memikirkan nanti aku akan membazir mase ,aku pon membatalkan niat.lagion beli makanan kat uia lagi murah dan mengenyangkan.tunggu train nak ke gombak pon tak berapa lama dan aku masih lagi bernasib baik sebab dapat tempat duduk.
alhamdulillah!
sampai je dekat gombak aku terus bejalan ke tempat teksi.aku memang berhajat nak naik teksi sebab aku terasa sangat la leti dan penat.kalu naik bus belum tentu dapat tempat duduk dan semestinya aku kena berjalan kaki memanjat bukit menuju ke mahallah yang tinggi ni.pak cik teksi tu berhentikan aku betul-betul depan blok E ni.hah! kan bagus.
jimat tenaga!
lepas selesaikan urusan ambik kunci bilik,aku terus pegi cafe nak selesaikan urusan perut aku yang dah berkeroncong.nasi ayam jadi menu pilihan.kira okey la tu kan.naik bilik,kemas barang-barang,makan.lepas tu,aku pon menjalankan xtvt wajib apabila kita kepenatan.ape lagi kalu bukan,
TIDUR!
sangat la best aku tido sampai tetinggal maghrib.baru lah aku rasa sekarang bahawasanya
BERDIKARI ITU MEMANG MEMENATKAN!
